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Aug 19, 2008

NEW YORK (CNN) -- Russia invades Georgia and President Bush goes on vacation. Our president has spent one-third of his entire two terms in office either at Camp David, Maryland, or at Crawford, Texas, on vacation. His time away from the Oval Office included the month leading up to 9/11, when there were signs Osama bin Laden was planning to attack America, and the time Hurricane Katrina destroyed the city of New Orleans.Sen. John McCain takes weekends off and limits his campaign events to one a day. He made an exception for the religious forum on Saturday at Saddleback Church in Southern California.I think he made a big mistake. When he was invited last spring to attend a discussion of the role of faith in his life with Sens. Barack Obama and Hillary Clinton, at Messiah College in Pennsylvania, McCain didn't bother to show up. Now I know why.It occurs to me that John McCain is as intellectually shallow as our current president. When asked what his Christian faith means to him, his answer was a one-liner. "It means I'm saved and forgiven." Great scholars have wrestled with the meaning of faith for centuries. McCain then retold a story we've all heard a hundred times about a guard in Vietnam drawing a cross in the sand. (Actually, this was a scene from the movie Ben Hur - A total ripoff by Mccain; since there is absolutely NO way to verify this story. He's no Reagan, for sure.)Asked about his greatest moral failure, he cited his first marriage, which ended in divorce. While saying it was his greatest moral failing, he offered nothing in the way of explanation. Why not? (If he cheated on his first wife when she was disabled, how do we know he won't cheat on the disabled American economy?) Throughout the evening, McCain chose to recite portions of his stump speech as answers to the questions he was being asked. Why? He has lived 71 years. Surely he has some thoughts on what it all means that go beyond canned answers culled from the same speech he delivers every day. (Unfortunately, McCain seems to think the American people are as shallow as he is. He seems to assume these superficial answers OUGHT to suffice. Are we superficial? Do we want more depth in our leaders?)He was asked "if evil exists." His response was to repeat for the umpteenth time that Osama bin Laden is a bad man and he will pursue him to "the gates of hell." That was it. (Not everything is hinged on Bin Laden. If we had wanted to get bin Laden - don't you think we would have by now? There's a payoff in NOT capturing bin Laden. Think about it. Ask yourself honestly WHO benefits from bin Laden's freedom?)He was asked to define rich. After trying to dodge the question -- his wife is worth a reported $100 million -- he finally said he thought an income of $5 million was rich.(I'm sorry - how many of us has 5 mil?)One after another, McCain's answers were shallow, simplistic, and trite. He showed the same intellectual curiosity that George Bush has -- virtually none.Where are John McCain's writings exploring the vexing moral issues of our time? Where are his position papers setting forth his careful consideration of foreign policy, the welfare state, education, America's moral responsibility in the world, etc., etc., etc.?John McCain graduated 894th in a class of 899 at the Naval Academy at Annapolis. His father and grandfather were four star admirals in the Navy. Some have suggested that might have played a role in McCain being admitted. (Nepatism at it's best - which is just how our current president got his start. His daddy had to go to Reagan and ask - read beg - for a post for his son in Reagan's cabinet. Read Reagan's diary entry re: Bush's loser son, our 43rd president.)His academic record was awful. And it shows over and over again whenever McCain is called upon to think on his feet. (So, now we know why McCain appears as shallow as he does - there is absolutely nothing going on in his brain. More importantly, do we REALLY WANT ANOTHER INNTELECTUAL DUD FOR A PRESIDENT????????? How has that worked for us over the past 8 years?)He no longer allows reporters unfettered access to him aboard the "Straight Talk Express" for a reason. He simply makes too many mistakes. Unless he's reciting talking points or reading from notes or a TelePrompTer, John McCain is lost. He can drop bon mots at a bowling alley or diner -- short glib responses that get a chuckle, but beyond that McCain gets in over his head very quickly. (Again, this points towards a definitive lack of intellect.)I am sick and tired of the president of the United States embarrassing me. (Finally!!! The Emporer really has no clothes - he just doesn't know it. How embarrassing!!! Dude is out in the world thinking he has on his finest; in reality he's buck naked and doesn't know the difference.)The world we live in is too complex to entrust it to someone else whose idea of intellectual curiosity and grasp of foreign policy issues is to tell us he can look into Vladimir Putin's eyes and see into his soul. (Like Putin cares one whit what the world thinks of him or his soul - we saw that months ago in his photo expose - Putin fishing, Putin the 'iron man' flexing his overweight muscles. At least Bush doesn't compare himself to Arnold (I'll be back).)George Bush's record as a student, military man, businessman and leader of the free world is one of constant failure. And the part that troubles me most is he seems content with himself. ( Narcissists usually are, eh?)He will leave office with the country $10 trillion in debt, fighting two wars, our international reputation in shambles, our government cloaked in secrecy and suspicion that his entire presidency has been a litany of broken laws and promises, our citizens' faith in our own country ripped to shreds. Yet Bush goes bumbling along, grinning and spewing moronic one-liners, as though nobody understands what a colossal failure he has been.I fear to the depth of my being that John McCain is just like him. ( Me, too, and thank GOD McCafferty has the balls to speak out.)Finally - the definition of insanity is doing the same thing, over and over again, the same way; yet expecting different results.

Some Thoughts on McCain and the Constitution

"We're dedicated to the proposition that all people are created equal and endowed by our creator with inalienable rights," he said.
Hmmmmm....
I am wondering if this applies to gays and lesbians; I am wondering how they will incorporate equal rights for all and reality.
If you take McCain's remarks at face value, then all people have the right to marry the one they love as well as receive all the rights, responsibilities, hassle and joy of marriage.
Doesn't this fly in the face of the religious right/traditional values people who support McCain?
It summons to mind that McCain's speech was not really how he sees the republican party working in America.
Many years ago, I spoke at the state capitol in Sacramento, advocating AB101, which would have given gays and lesbians equal rights in California.
My feeling was, and still is, if gays and lesbians are required to pay taxes like everyone else, they ought to enjoy the benefits and burdens of equality as well.
It's not a religious or political position; it is simply the position set out by our forefathers - that every one is created equal, and everyone is GUARANTEED equality under our constitution.
The forefathers of our nation never distinguished gays and lesbians as a group of people NOT covered under our constitution, there is no footnote with regards to homosexuality in the document&183;
Our constitution also guarantees the separation of church and state, meaning government cannot dictate religion and religion cannot dictate government.
One does not exist without the other.
I am just wondering how the McCain campaign might address this issue; I'd love to be a fly on the wall for that discussion.

Friday, September 05, 2008

Sagging Pant Phenomenom
My uncle told me years ago (he is now dead) that he,his brothers and friends used to sag their pants - inthe 1920's and 30's!
Yeah, and he told me it drove parents during that era crazy as well.
He went on to become the head of the european historydepartment at the University of Hawaii, was adecorated navy seaman and gourmet chef.
Who knows where the fashion "trend" (and I use thatterm loosely) originated from...
FINALLY, my son - who is 22 this week - got the messagethat the sag probably wasn't the best way to impressyoung women, and now does NOT wear his pants to showthe crack of his rear end.
For some reason, neither do his friends.
And, as a mom, I am glad my son no longer feels theneed to sag his pants.
LEGISLATING what people wear, however, is anotherissue, and it's something I am completely against.
What are people thinking?
Do we have so little to focus on that how people weartheir pants is something we want our legislators andlawmakers to add to their priority list?
How about we focus on global warming, the war in Iraq,feeding the hungry, ending child abuse, racism,discrimination; I could go on.
Next they will outlaw tye-dye t-shirts.
Geese!

Friday, Spetember 5, 2008

Life and Death


It's coming up on the 2nd anniversary of my mom's death.

It seems like forever that she's been gone, at the same time, it seems like yesterday.

I was not with my mom when she died - I was not allowed, and I feel cheated, exactly the way I was meant to feel - kind of the last infliction of abuse from my father.

Several months prior, when doctors caring for her called to our attention the perverse "investment" my father had with her dying, my sisters and I banded together to try to give her a chance to live.

She had been through several surgeries, at least one mistake that ought to have been interpreted as malpractice; our father wanted her to go to hospice, where she would eventually die.

Come to find out, Hospice would not take her, she WASN'T SICK ENOUGH!!!!

In the beginning, we felt compassion for Jack (our father).

As the days progressed, we felt more outrage at his overt lack of caring for Jane (our mother).

Remarks like, "I don't know why you bother to bring food, she's going to die anyway." In front of Jane, while she looked at him, half in fear, half in amazement that the man she spent 62 years with would cast her off like bad lettuce on a sandwich.

Or, when we questioned hospice, since the doctors told us all she would be able to recover: "You don't get it. It's been six months. I can't golf, I can't travel; I just have to stay at home and take care of her."

Selfish, narcissistic prick.

All about him, nothing for the woman who gave him 4 children and 62 years of her life.

The straw that broke the camels back came as my mother was changing her health care directive from palative (just handling her until she died) to moving towards transitioning back into life - meaning therapy, aggressive treatment and eventually going home and LIVING.

That same day, as Jack stood at the nurse's station and they explained to him hospice was not an alternative as she was not sick enough; and besides, she had changed her health care directive to wanting to LIVE, he stormed into her room, with the social worker, her doctor and my sister and I present and yelled at my mother "so, you think you can live?" Several expletives later, he stormed out of the room.

The hospital responded by posting a guard at Jane's room. They closed the hospital for the weekend, due the behavior of Jack.

My sisters and I endured verbal assaults, Jack following us through the hospital yelling at us. He treatened to kill all the 'vipers' (my sisters and I) We were called cunts, sluts, bitches - all for advocating healthcare for our mother.

I wrote a letter, the mother of all letters, outlining what my sisters and I felt was a lack of ability by our father to care for our mother. I sent it to everyone I knew - Jack's lawyer, his golf club buddies, the local papers...

My sisters eventually were allowed to see Jane. They told me Jack would give away Jane's things to people who came to see her, stating "she'll never use any of this stuff again", while my mom watched silently and cried.

See, he did this to his own mother as well. He put her in a "rest home" and did not visit once in the 10 years she was there. He sold all of her things, and did not allow any of us to have anything from her. Save one thing - her rocking chair, which I have. She had told me to take it before Jack (her son) sold everything and she would have nothing left to give her grandchildren.

The last time I saw my mother, my daughter and my sister came with me. My sisters and I had decided long ago "never go alone" to visit Jane. It was a decision I feel probably saved my life.

As we walked into the house, bringing food for both of them; exactly what my mother had asked of me, food for both herself and Jack; he again spewed verbal assaults.

Frankly, I was done. I was 50 years old, way too old for anyone to be treating me like this. I said as much, asking Jack why he had to be such a jerk; we had all thought he would be happy his wife of 62 years had decided to try and overcome this illness.

My daughter got a good idea of what my siblings and I grew up with.

The next thing I knew, I saw Jack raging towards me, arms outstretched and before i knew it, his hands were around my neck and I blacked out.

I "woke" up to see my daughter flying across me, grabbing Jacks hands and whipping them behind his back. She was being kind, almost gentle until he wrangled his way away from her and began beating her.

Again, her martial arts training kicked in, and this time, he was done. I heard "oh, no, you're not going to do that to me" and he was in a pretzle, being pushed out to the garage, door locked behind him.

My mother stood there, holding onto her walker, deer in the headlights expression on her face.

The only other time I saw that expression was when I was 16, I had decided to stop swimming for a year to help my rotator cuff injury heal. I had decided against surgery. Jack yelled at me, and hit me full on with his fist in my shoulder, dislocating it. Apparently, he did not think I was injured. I swung back, connecting with his jaw and told him never to touch me again.

This day, the police came and my father was arrested. He admitted to them he had been violent with me, my daughter and my sister. He used profanity with the police in describing us. I pressed charges, he got 4 months of anger management.

I told the district attorney I wanted to press charges, because this was the first time I had a witness to Jack's abuse and he needed to have consequences for his behavior.

We were disowned, disinherited. I could not talk to Jane on the phone, Jack would hang up when I called.

I did find out that she died on October 4th, 2006. No service, no memorial. Creamation and done. There might have been a service, however when Jack found out he couldn't watch Jane burn, he was no longer interested. I guess they take you out and flip you over like a burger, and figure most people don't have the stomach for it.

I'm having my carbon compressed into diamonds, and all my kids and Isaiah, my grandson, will get one. I'll be shining sparkling loving energy around them always.

The Big Bailout - Grab your Buckets!

No to the Bailout: We Can't Let Bankers Try to Blackmail America
by James M Pinkerton, Fox News
September 29th, 2008 3:42 PM Eastern

"You are a den of vipers and thieves. I intend to rout you out, and by the eternal God, I will rout you out."

Today I turn over my space to Andrew Jackson, the seventh president of the United States, who said these fiery words to a delegation of bankers in 1832:

"Gentlemen, I have had men watching you for a long time, and I am convinced that you have used the funds of the bank to speculate in the breadstuffs of the country. When you won, you divided the profits amongst you, and when you lost, you charged it to the bank. You tell me that if I take the deposits from the bank and annul its charter, I shall ruin ten thousand families. That may be true, gentlemen, but that is your sin! Should I let you go on, you will ruin fifty thousand families, and that would be my sin! You are a den of vipers and thieves. I intend to rout you out, and by the eternal God, I will rout you out."

The issue back then was the Bank of the United States, a federally chartered institution—sort of a predecessor to the Federal Reserve—that Jackson, ever the populist, strongly opposed. Today, most people agree that a national bank is necessary, but as today's vote demonstrates, there is no national consensus on transferring wealth from the middle to the top. Good! Let's hope that principle holds true for a while longer.

Today, the same as back then, big bankers attempt to blackmail America: If you don't do things our way, exactly as we tell you, then the roof will cave in.


No sovereign nation should allow itself to be pushed around by finance like that. If it does, the same blackmail threat will be made again, and again, and again. The time has come to say "No!" And to make it stick.

There are plenty of other ideas for helping Main Street, including a plan advanced here last week, not Wall Street; now it's up to the American people to insist that those ideas get a full hearing. Because otherwise, we know what will happen: The Republican-Democratic elite will combine with Wall Street to worsen the economic situation, as a way of teaching the American people a harsh lesson, and ultimately bringing us to heel.

But maybe this time, we will not be moved.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Up in the Sierra Mountains, near Soda Springs off Hiway 80, is Serene Lake.

I love it up there, and have done some snow shoeing in the winter as well as swimming in the summer.

In the summertime, you can swim out to the middle of the lake and relax on a platform teathered to the bottom.

Sometime in the middle of August, it's a place well known for meteor gazing.

I like to visit the lake in the evening.

Maybe it's the change in temperature at this particular time of the year, when a slight chill in the evening takes away the heat of the day; and a mist forms on the lake, just a few inches deep:

I like to lay flat on the dock and watch the stars running through the sky.

And soon I am floating - I am the dock, I can feel the surface tension of the water and the fog whispering at my toes.

Sexism and the Liberal Media???

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Is the "liberal media elite" making Sarah Palin incapable of answering questions that a VP should be able to?
Simple, they're not.

Her inability to answer the same type of questions that has been asked of EVERY other candidate is a reflection of her lack of intelligence, not a result of media bias.
Again, what may work and fool the frigid outer fringe of our country (alaska) simply does not fly with the rest of the country.
All it takes is to read the commentaries and editorials to know that.
And, John McCain said today he was unaware of the sentiment in our country over the absolute audacity of his pandering choice for VP.
Can he read? Does the Emporer have NO CLOTHES???
It has gotten to a point where I pity this woman; McCain simply used her for the female vote. As if we would be that shallow!
I sumbit this is the clearest and most insulting case of SEXISM that has occurred during this entire political process, perpetrated by a candidate for the highest office in our land!
Someone, PLEASE!

Tell McCain that 'Leave it to Beaver' and "My Three Sons" were TELEVISION shows, they ran a long time ago, and our culture has changed dramatically since.

Things I REalize

Nov. 22, 2009
It's early on this saturday morning.
I just put laundry in, my son is moving back with me to sleep on the couch. (a whole other post) Part economy, part learning experience.
I was thinking about my day.
I'll be spending part of the day with my grandson; driving through the car wash, going to the pet store and Trader Joe's. It's our mid-day saturday thing he and I have. NPR blues program playing on the radio.
After grocer shopping and "train spotting" we go back to grandma's house for lunch and a movie, and then his momma picks him up.
To my grandson, I can do almost no wrong. From the beginning, he spent the night with me, snuggling in grandma's bed. At grandma's house, there's a pool and always a wilingness to swim. Sometimes we swim several times in a day, on hot nights during the summer, we've been known to go night swimming.
Isaiah is the only other human I know willing to take the water temperature as it is, he'll get in anytime, like me, almost a challenge to the senses. In fact, he has more guts than I do.
Isaiah loves Grandma's car. He gets to sit in the front seat, we cruise 'T' street with the windows down, arms out the window, tapping our toes to the music. If it's cold outside, we put the heater on for the summer effect. Isaiah will point out interesting birds and trees and he's starting to read street signs; or he'll look at me, nodding his head to the music and smile.
He knows the way to grandma's house. I can be almost anywhere around sacramento, and when the game 'how do we get to grandma's house' starts, he invariably will talk me home. "Turn right here" "Turn left here" "Go forward"
Great grandma times.
I was reminded a couple of weeks ago just how fragile that aura of greatness and perfection is.
So, autistic kids rely on routine, or memory of a similar event (for lack of a better explaination).
Three years ago, we were all in LA for my sisters wedding. Isaiah likes his straws (his 'birds'), and had a slew of them in his hand while we were looking at the view from the balcony. I think we were on the 4th floor. One of his straws made a get-away, falling to the pavement below.
The look of horror on his face was complete.
I watched as he cried as we both saw a couple of cars pass over the straw.
I went downstairs and got it. He kept a bead on it and pointed from the balcony. (Ursi was there with him - and we tried hard not to laugh)
His sigh of relief was audible even to me when he saw me pick up the straw.
I was the HERO!
He learned "help" that day - the word I had been trying to teach him to replace the frustration made sense to him. From there, he learned "need help".
Now he says "grandma, i need help" - sometimes "please" follows that.
Great strides.
Anyway, about the hero thing.
He and I both learned I can't fix everything. (That was hard for both of us, for different reasons)
We got a balloon from Trader Joes. I tied it around his wrist. It stayed there all the way home, up the the porch. As he switched hands to open the door, the balloon slipped free and was up in the tree before he had time to say "help!".
Bummer.
I know it's impossible to retrieve that darned balloon. He, on the other hand, can't stop asking me for help and doesn't understand why I'm not helping.
After a while of fits and misunderstanding - or, not understanding why grandma couldn't get up in that tree and get his yellow balloon, we arrived at trader joes and received another balloon, tears on his face, but smiling.
I imagine as he and I get older, try as I might, there will be more things I can't fix but would love to, for him.
Anyhow, I've lost my train of thought, kitty is trying to type and my laundry is done
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Gays and Lesbians and Equality

Saturday, November 22, 2008
Pretty cool obama was elected. pretty sad people still feel gays and lesbians can be morally or legally disenfranchised.

really sad the separation of church and state falls by the wayside via special interest money (FVC/Mormons). here in sacramento, a big drama surrounding the creative director for music circus, who gave money to prop 8 proponents. GLBT community members up in arms threatened to boycott music circus.radio nitwits decrying the GLBT for their show of consumer power.
i'm saying, it's about time.
no one asked the question: do these religious freaks spend money at gay and lesbian establishments?what you do think?
so it's the obvious hipocracy of the religious right/family values cults that fascinates me, disgusts me.
the subliminal projection of the Right towards gays and lesbians regarding their accusation that the GLBT community lacked tolerance for the religious right numbs the mind.
but then, these are the same people who elected bush (twice) and were seen all a-gog over palin.
about prop 8 - it's against the state constitution. nowhere in our state constitution does it state marraige is between a man and a woman. not even in our country's constitution. not even in the bible does it state marraige is between a man and a woman.
the supreme court is revisiting the outcome of the election and the subject of gay marraige in general. i feel pretty sure they will not overturn their original ruling.
the bottom line for me is: we're all equal. we all pay taxes and participate in american society, right? do gays and lesbians get a special tax rate to compensate for the lack of the benefits/burdens/rights and responsibilites of citizenship? or a tax credit like disabled or blind people do?
i'm just wondering...

New Era or Lip Service Once Again?

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

It's been a while. It seems like forever since Obama has been president. I mean, it feels like he started his presidency right after the election - Bush was AWOL mentally - and the dolus Republican dogma machine started in right away.

As irrelevant as McCain or Rush are right now, still yet many americans take their dolus dogma as truth. I take this moment to reflect on the status of education in our country.
It makes more sense to me that people like Rush, O'Rielley, Hannity, Palin and the likes have a voice in our country when I realize how many Americans are suffering from a lack of education. It's the only way someone might rationalize following such golden calves. It's an uneducated choice, this genre of thought. It reflects the lack of critical thinking, the inability to rise above base reflexes - like settling differences with a fist fight compared to talking things out with your spouse.

Treasonist Republicans

March 2, 2009
There has never been a worse president than Bush II. Period.
It’s going to take more than the collective brains responding to this OPINION piece to understand the mess Bush II got the country into.
We’ll chalk up that learning curve to the LACK of quality education in our country, thanks to the trickle down effects (NOT) of the republican economic theory.
You all need to stop listening to entertainers like Limbaugh and Hannity. Remember, they get paid to entertain. That means they are actors; entertainers - with little or no intellectual value attached.
Do you all think that because there was such an outcry over the 8 lame Bush presidency years, that now the thing to do is return the criticism, no matter if it’s based in reality?
If the war spending was not in the budget, then we were deceived. Thanks, Bush II. We spent a lot of money in Iraq, and for what, REALLY?
Our national debt doubled under Bush II.
Do you all really believe that this can be solved in a month or two? We are a microwave democracy here - meaning, you don’t put something in for a few minutes and it’s ready to eat. This huge mess will take time to fix.
Maybe Obama doesn’t have all the answers, but we KNOW that the republican dogma will not work. Now, all of you who are complaining - find some solutions.
If you have none, SHUT UP, go back to school, read a book, do something HELPFUL for a change and do your best not to follow the lead lemming off the clif.
Friday, March 13, 2009

I get tired of old, ideological demagogues revising history to manipulate their 15 minutes of fame.
I'm tired of making my way out of the viscose dogma that intertwines the media.
Not only do we have Hannity taking polls to see what kind of "revolution" americans would prefer; we have the ultimate commedian Rush perpetrating failure for the president.
I submit that these two individuals are bordering on treason.
It's one thing to have a different opinion and use the first amendment to express it (and I totally support freedom of speech) - it's quite another thing to incite treasonist acts: the HIV tainted blood, the "revolution", etc.
If someone had suggested during Bush's administration anything close to revolution, you can believe Cheney would have locked their fat, doughy rear ends in the slammer, they would have been labeled terrorists against the state and we'd never hear from them again.
While these two aformentioned media clowns are simply entertainers, not anyone with noteworthy intelligence - and most of us can acertain the difference - it seems to me the majority of their audience are victims of the poor education systems we have in America: you have to be lacking critical thinking to give these talking heads any credence or allow them to influence your thinking.
Wake up people!
The Republicans have nothing new to add to our economic troubles.
Certainly, if they DID, they would have brought it to the table and labled themselves heros!
It would be a shoo-in for the next election.
But you have to wonder, all this rhetoric and no solutions...what is their REAL agenda?
At the very least, Obama is putting himself on the line and trying something different. I challenge everyone to sit down and shut up and support the idea of our country turning around from the mess we're in right now.
And these talking heads who seemingly delight in instigating revolt or the death of the president, ought to look at your viewership and ask yourself if you can be proud that uneducated lemmings follow your dolus dogma.
I would be embarrassed, personally.

Obama's 60 days

Thursday, March 26, 2009

All of this dolus dogma and rhetoric spewing from the keyboards of Fox and CNN bloggers just gets so redundant...everyone has an excuse, a reason for the hatred they seem to focus on the new president...for those of you who have bought into the 'disposable' and 'immediate gratification' mentality that permeates our society; check yourselves.

it's only been 60 days.
fixing the economy isn't something you can microwave and it'll be done in 4 minutes.
the frenzy of phirana some call the MEDIA whose agenda it is to whip up emotional opinions on both sides of a story to sell it, has been swallowed like a chocolate coated hook by most of america.and, those who feast on lemmings are fat right now.
this is where critical thinking must come into play, and why Obama said the other day he wants us to pay attention to what goes on in washington.
yeah, he was talking to us, not the media.
reasonable people might understand that it will take more than 60 days to turn this country around. that being said, it is the republicans who have been the party of "no" since 2006.
unfortunately, it's been the minutae that gets the attention, while the big stuff is placed on the back burner. now we have to deal with all the stuff at the back - and some of it's been there for a while.
i do appreciate the president taking everything into consideration with regards to the budget - including the war expenditures. even in my personal life, i cannot budget for something i do not acknowledge. seems pretty insane, actually.
i feel Bush was disengenuous on that front, as well as the state of the economy. we've suffered that fool long enough, and thankfully, Obama stepped up and is willing to do his best to fix it. he's vowed to take 4 years out of his and his family's life to do it.
we owe it to him to listen. we elected him by more than just a slim margin, something i think the republicans are - jealous of. (their narcissism is showing)
and now, like i said before, because it's not happening at microwave speed and it doesn't have a pretty packaging yet, some of us have been critical.regardless of what stream of consciousness you are following, everyone needs to give it some time - our economy has not ceased to exist, we're shoring up the banks, and working on a positive outcome.
the world is watching to see how we deal with this...either as spoiled 4 year olds, or as a leading nation.
i prefer the latter.

Down the Rabbit Hole, Vol. 1

Wed. May 20, 2009
I was wondering when someone would get to the point of
Old Newt's demise…he is an ethically challenged ex-lawmaker who left the Speakership position in shame. He also lied about his object of shame before being forced to admit his wrongdoing.
God, I just don't understand the Republicans.
Everyone else gets hung out to dry on the line of personal ethics but them.
So Newt found a hole he can crawl through and wants to throw stones at someone else – why not Pelosi, she seems to be the target de jour – to be able to regain his 15 minutes and sell his book.
Why should this surprise anyone?
Maybe it's just me, but I see this as a left over issue from the Bush/Cheney regime that Pelosi got caught in the middle of.
The CIA cannot even verify that the briefings the Republicans are up in arms about actually took place…and to me, might be a product of the Republican smear mongers more than events that took place.
The Republicans are now calling for all these documents to be released.
Hmmmmmmmm…..there's a fatal flaw there for anyone who cares to look.
So, I'm wondering if all these Rush/Steele following lemmings understand the consequences of following these 2 morons blindly.
See, both Rush and Steele are "entertainers" – neither sets policy for the Republican party – but do their job by keeping the public focused on insipid mellow drama.
This business about torture will eventually come back to fall directly in Cheney's lap. He might even go to prison.

Open letter to Fox News RE: Palin/Letterman

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

C'mon, you guys! As a woman, I have to ask:Don't you have anything better to do with your time?You all are arms up in the air over a JOKE, protecting the fair lady from the dragons.I watched Letterman. I heard the joke, and I thought - harsh.
Not as harsh, though, as some of the things that were said by Palin herself and HER supporters during the election season, when Palin's supporters were calling Obama a terrorist, when shouts of "kill him" came from the crowd; and she made statements to the same effect.
So you can stand up for a woman and be all over the woman's issue stuff - makes you guys look good.
But people start talking about killing a presidential candidate...where were did you stand then?
You were smirking in the back studio, waiting for it to happen so you could cover the news.
You people make me sick.
Palin makes me sick. She's an embarrassment to intelligent women. She puts together a sentence like Bush II. (not a compliment)
She has no idea what the constitution really means.
She paraded her pregnant, unwed daughter in front of the world.
The dichotomy of her religious righteousness and her unwed, pregnant daughter was not lost on those of us who still think independently.
Obviously, Palin cannot practice what she preaches within her own family, how are we supposed to assume she could with our nation?
PLEASE!
You all cover news when people joke about Obama as a monkey, the first lady a gorilla; you cover the death of a doctor with no objectivity whatsoever.
So, one one hand, you support women; on the other, you do not support their right to use their brains and choose.The double standard here is obvious.
Please start thinking with your BIG brain (it's attached to your neck); not the smaller one between your legs.
Everything will become clearer to you.

Autism 1

Wednesday, June 17, 2009
We've come to a new fork in the road in terms of Isaiah, my grandson, and autism.

We're talking recovery.I'm starting a new section of this blog especially to document this new thing we're moving into. I think it will help us see the progress as well as anyone else who has a child with autism see there are alternative therapies that might work.
We're having Isaiah tested for allergies, as well as heavy metal toxicity. This will include testing for allergies to therapeutic drugs that might possibly be used to help him get rid of any type of toxin/yeast/infection in his body.
This costs money. If this initial test shows what I (we) think it will, we'll do another, more costly battery of testing for allergies. (This second round of testing we'll have to raise money for, and I'll talk about it later, as well as my ideas for raising money. I think I can't sell enough tye dye tshirts to pay for this...but I'm tabling it until later.)
I'm not saying he HAS these things in his body. But it seems MOST autistic kids have some level of these things going on in their bodies, and it follows reasonable logic that Isaiah might also.
WHY? Are autistic kids more prone of absorbing environmental impurities? Do they have less of an imune system to battle oxidents in the air?On his own, Isaiah has made great progress in the past few months.
He says to me, holding his arm up, palm to me: "Grandma, wait right here. I'll be right back. I need to use the bathroom" Plain as day. And, he proceeds to go inside, do his thing, wipe, and comes back outside.
This is very new, using the bathroom and being so articulate about it. He's growing up, and talking more about everything...I try to teach him a new word each saturday, when we're spending time together. His sentence structure is becoming more mature. He likes playing with my cat, Zephyr, who I taught to fetch a ball. Isaiah gets a big kick out of it when she brings it back to him.
So, all of this is good and hopeful. I will continue to write regularly about this.

Birthers & Reality

We really are a society of lemmings.
I can remember when the term 'birthers' might refer to women who, like me, gave birth to their children at home with midwives.
Now it refers to people who do not believe Obama is a 'natural born citizen'.A couple of things come to mind.
One, people like Rush, Hannity and some other 'conservative' talking heads are promulgating the theory, or at the very least giving it air time. For some less critically thinking individuals, this must mean the idea has credibility. After all, like my male biological parental unit used to say, "if Dr. Dean Adel says its true, it must be"... so it follows that if the aforementioned talking heads give this rediculous theory (that Obama is not a citizen, therefore not really president) any media time, these morons think it must be true.
Second, if it WERE true, that Obama is not a natural born citizen, wouldn't we have seen Clinton (during the primaries) jump all over this? Or, maybe she was in on the plan for Obama to become president, and her running was a ruse? Pretty expensive ruse, eh? Doubt it.Third, if McCain had ANY inkling that Obama was not a natural born citizen - with Palin at his side whipping the crowds into frenzies with shouts of "palling around with terrorists" and "kill him" coming from the crowd ... wouldn't it follow that THEY would stand up and say something, bring it to the attention of the Supreme Court or SOMEONE?But no, none of these people raised the issue - people who spent their money (and ours) to be elected to the highest office in our country. In fact, McCain at the end had to take a microphone out of the hands of the crazy blonde lady and tell her that no, in fact, Mr. Obama is not a terrorist, he's not an egyptian, or muslim...For sure, Palin would have said something... (I mean, if she could form a cohesive sentence... sorry...more on her at a different time).It's hard to wrap my head around understanding why a group of people would invest their time and energy in a LIE. Someone is making money off this.

Pay the Money

Wednesday, July 29, 2009
I'm wondering why the state legislators have not taken a pay cut, but are asking the rest of us to do so?

I mean, if they are not doing their job, i.e. balancing our budget, making sure needed programs have funding, making sure we are not wasting money...ought they have their full salary? Did we agree to pay for incompetence?
At least Arnold doesn't take a salary. I appreciate that about him, although I've wondered about his effectiveness as governor.
Waving around a sword on you tube...it was cute, maybe less appropriate then he realized...
Still yet, with all the media attention, political swagger, rhetoric... still, we've cut from education and health care for poor kids.
No matter what was said, this was the plan from the beginning. Take away from people who are most vulnerable.
And, hello - we'll have even more people with fewer intellectual skills than we do now. We're producing generations of people unable to think critically...who will rely on the media for their information in terms of who to vote for...YIKES!!! people like rush limbaugh - you don't have to own a tv or have cable service to listen to his dolus dogma, or go to church (more dolus dogma).
In addition, we'll have no one who can pick up the ball and run with technology. We'll have more sick people.
How will this get us to turn the corner in our country and become, once again, the leading nation we once THOUGHT we were?

2009 - the year of the unemployed

Thursday, August 06, 2009

So, this the end of a 7 year cycle.
my grandson's 7th birthday.
his momma and poppa took him to the capitol aquarium and he picked out 2 goldfish.
totally thrilled to have a fish tank.
we went to the bakery and we picked out a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting.
sang happy birthday and my grandson cut the cake.
happy pictures. i love this little guy.
the company i've been working at for 7 years laid me off friday.
in 4 weeks, i worked 372 hours, and then no work.
there was 7 of us laid off.
wow.
i admit to spinning and clutching and anxiety attacks for the first 36 hours.
then i figured out my budget and ui benefit, and i felt a little better.
hmmmm...i've been at this place without unemployment insurance, so i feel a little better (read greateful / relieved)
knowing that i can squeek by and maybe pick up some freelance,"sur la table" work, if you know what i mean.
i'm looking at the end of a 7 year cycle (i know there's significance of the seven year cycle- is it the saturn return?),
the beginning of a new one, and what do i want that to look like.
hmmmm....
i'm up to a mile and a half swimming 5 days a week.
well on the way to my 50 miles by the end of the summer.
i think the universe is telling me to go to the gym for as long as i want to, ride my bike to the store,
or maybe to second saturday...
actualize She-Ra.
continue to simplify.
i realized sunday how much i let go of my life to do this job...which i like the work...
long hours and hard on my body, though, and i'm not getting any younger -
even with a mile and a half in the pool.
it's been good, though, to earn my living doing art; i know some really cool stuff...
my skills at photoshop and design are stellar.
definitely swimming has been an awesome stress release; i used to swim until the dialog in my head stoppped.
now pretty much as soon as i start stretching the sound of the water takes all that away.
i've been having some great swims lately, working on my strokes.
looking forward, feeling calm and no regrets.

Life of the Unemployed

Thursday, September 17, 2009

So, here I am at my old job - they have called me in to do some things no one else has figured out how to do...which is good. I don't mind making a few extra dollars under the table today.

I reached my goal of 50 miles in the pool this summer - actually made 65 miles. Swimming is getting easier and easier and I love it. I've added an hour of yoga and cycling. I've lost 4 inches of my chest, 3 inches off my waist, 3 from the hips and 2 from the thighs...I'm at month 5, so it's not like it happened quickly, but I also made some muscle - all which is good. People are starting to tell me they can see how much weight I have lost, and that feels good as well. I'm feeling really good. I understand more about how stress affects me, and I'm thinking that the lifestyle changes I am making now will carry me through the rest of my years.
I have my sister Susan to thank for this. She has inspired me, supported me and challenged me...all in self-esteem building ways. See, she knows things about me from our childhood, she understand issues and somehow, she got through the armour I had been carrying around...I love her so much for making the effort and caring.
My garden is growing and looks great. I like that I have time for it, and cleaning out my garage...!
Is this what retired is supposed to be like?
I am buying a bag of clay and some canvas this week, getting started with my own art again is where I am putting my energy next.

The Neckbones

Tuesday, November 03, 2009
A while ago, I created some neck vertabrae out of clay...with the ultimate goal of mounting them on rebar so they were suspended in space...mounted onto a wooden platform, with a background painting of hands coming towards the neckbones.

All this a memorializing of the incident with my father and mother, whereas my father did his best to strangle the life out of me.
My daughter pretty much saved me...pulling said biological unit off of me and taking a couple of punches herself before taking away the benefit of the doubt and wrestling the man into a choke hold, his hands behind his back...and the words "oh, no, you're not doing this to me or my mom"...he ran away into the garage as we called the police.
There's more to this story, obviously - we had just arrived with 2 weeks worth of food for the parents; my mom dying of cancer and her husband (our father)who told everyone who would listen what a BURDEN it was to take care of his wife of 62 years - who did everything for him - this man whining about not being able to go cruising.
GO CRUISE, then, old man; we'll take care of mom.
But no!
If WE took care of her, she would live...an obvious conflict for him...his own physician asked me why the father had so much of a vested interest in his wife's demise.
What we could put together came in the form of Cialis tabs on the bathroom sink...there was another woman, there have always been other women.
And, I think my mother, when she realized she would not be the priority; and had overheard my father complaining about taking care of her (this was 4 months in...) - most probably gave up.
It was too much to do battle with on top of the battle raging inside her body.
She did get scared, asked to go back to hospital - and got better!!! - only to have father screaming at her in her hospital bed "so you think you can live???"
It must have been pretty depressing for her. But we were not allowed to get close after we all made it clear we wanted to take care of her.
HE did not want her to be taken care of.
OK...back to the neckbones.
I had a moment of clarity...an epiphany...a state of grace. I threw the neckbones into the trash...and the anonimity of the sacramento garbage facility was just what I needed. I'll never know where they are... If I had buried them in the backyard, the effect would be the same as if I had completed the piece:
I would give power to the man...and keep myself connected forever...every time someone asked me about the piece I would relive it to a certain extent.
WAY BETTER to have just LET GO!!!
Wow, did it feel good!!!
And, I think, if I had been working my regular schedule, not taking a significant break, would I have achieved this enlightenment?
Probably not.
So again, I am GRATEFUL to be unemployed and able to process stuff I have been holding onto in survival mode.

Healthcare & Abortion

Thursday, November 12, 2009

I have A.D.D. - Advanced Democratic Disillusionment.
The point of the republicans’ “party of no” attitude towards healthcare was illuminated at 5:00 this morning as I was watching the pundits and their guests.
I could not sleep.

Still coughing my head off.
The republicans, who have tried to overturn Roe v Wade, found a way to practically eliminate abortion services for women:
1. They are demanding that no public funds are used to fund abortion services. OK. Religious people who pat taxes and have a problem with their tax dollars being spent on abortion have a point. But don’t stop me from paying for one on my own…
2. Hospitals that accept federal funding would be prevented from providing abortion services. That means clinics as well… like planned parenthood…
3. Women who want to use their own money (no public money, their own, EARNED money) would not be able to use their own money to purchase an insurance policy which included abortion services.
This pretty much ends abortions in the united states.
So, where do women go to get an abortion if they need one?
Are we back to the dirty alleys, questionable ‘doctors’ or trips to mexico (yuck)?
Is this where we want women to turn when they are stuck either with:
1. An unwanted pregnancy due to rape or incest,
2. An unwanted pregnancy due to a - heavens forbid - a mistake?
It might be argued that I have no standing, as I have already gone through menopause and obviously will never need another abortion.
Let me tell you this: any woman who has had an abortion does not make the decision lightly. An abortion, while a simple procedure, is NOT easy.
It’s not comfortable.
It’s not fun.
And, at some point, I feel that MEN ought not to have anything to say in terms of legislating abortion or not.
I’ve said this for over 30 years: if men had to give birth through the heads of their penises, we would have better, SAFER birth control and LEGAL abortion services.

Hands down.
Certainly, the government has subsidies for Viagra - so we know it’s important to the government and our legislators that men can get it up. I mean, you can get Viagra on welfare!!!
But women, who are left with the results of that ‘getting it up’, have no recourse.
Deal with it.
The unspoken message here is that birth control is STILL a woman’s responsibility, for, of course, men are SUPPOSED to spread their seed and forgo the consequences.
Deal with it.
This new kink in the healthcare reform bill is being pushed by the same Washington DC “Family” at C street, the same place Mark Foley (and other men of questionable morals, as it has been revealed) lived: he sexually harassed the pages, left in disgrace - and now we know that being a GAY legislator is more acceptable and more tolerated by republicans than being a women needing reproductive services.
And, is this not a separation of church and state issue, when the religious right feels they have the higher ground to perpetrate this disgusting and backwards healthcare bill on the statement they are doing “Gods work?”
In addition, what will we do with all these unwanted children?

Who will take care of them?
The states?
The church?
I remember in the early days, I walked women into clinics through throngs of shouting - MEN - protesting abortions, holding signs of abortion waste, doing their best to guilt women into keeping these pregnancies.
I remember MEN promising these women that GOD will take care of these children, that they will help…(for a couple of months…and then you’re on your own, baby.)
I remember making a mistake and needing an abortion.
I remember my RELIEF after having it, albeit a painful procedure, and being thankful that I could have one; even though I had to drive 2 hours one way to get it.
WHY do our legislators want to keep women cuckolded this way?
Every seed is NOT sacred.
It’s narcissistic to think so.
Tom McClasky of the Family Life Council, stated that he was “uncomfortable with the social engineering” of the health care reform bill.
I submit that social engineering occurs when a part of our society is not allowed to determine their own destiny, but instead are burdened by the same society that perceives them as less than their counterparts, and creates legislation to that end.
They’re setting the women’s equality back 40 years.
Yeah, we’ve come a long way, baby. A long, circular way.

Open Minds and Closed Mouths

Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Open Minds and Closed Mouths Category: News and Politics
Dick and Liz Cheney

Bill O'Rielley
Shawn Hannity
Rush Limbaugh
Sarah Palin
Glen Beck
Michelle Bachman
Lou Dobbs
I'm sure I've missed a few...It's too bad that these people with closed minds have open mouths.
I'm just saying...
Oh, the irony of it all.

Lou Dobbs for President???

(First posted November 25, 2009)
He's GOT to be kidding...just what we need – another doughy old white man, totally removed from any sense of reality trying to run for president.enough!
These media talking heads have been pushed up to the heavens, people have forgotten they are simply entertainers – not meant to do anything else other than entertain while pushing a certain agenda.rush, lou, hannity, o'reilley, beck, coulter and all the rest – are all sizzle and no steak; are completely out of touch with real america, and are playing a dangerous game of force feeding the american public their brand of limited intellect policies.
So taking money away from education all these years has done SOME people some good – these right wing monsters can now prey easily on the uneducated...and everything they spew is taken as the gospel truth – regardless of the facts they promulgate are manufactured for the radical conservative agenda.
I mean, if its said on tv, it must be true, eh?
Hopefully, we still have enough critical thinking people to put a stop to this nonsense.
STAND UP!

Michael Steele - the puppet of the GOP

First posted on December 2, 2009
An ally of Republican National Committee chairman Michael Steele claimed Tuesday that the so-called "purity test" being circulated by some RNC members is a publicity stunt designed to "stick it" to Steele after he defeated other candidates for the chairmanship in last January's election.
"You've got a few backbenchers who are unhappy," said Shawn Steel, an RNC member from California and one of the chairman's top supporters on the committee. "They don't have the power they once had under the previous chairman, and that's what motivating this. This is an attempt to stick it to Chairman Steele by the losers."
The resolution, still in draft form when it
was leaked to reporters late last month, would prohibit party funds from going to GOP candidates who disagree with elements of a proposed 10-point ideological platform. The proposal has sparked a pointed debate between conservatives who want candidates to adhere to strict principles and moderate Republicans who want to broaden the party's appeal."
I think Steele was promoted to this chairmanship because he isn't very smart, and the republicans who pull the strings thought they could manipulate Steele. Maybe they had something on him.
(Too bad they can't manipulate his mouth, I'm sure it's an embarrassment)

If the Republicans want to further remove themselves from relevancy, I say go for it. The problem is, with the right wing's ovbious agenda being shoved down our throat via Rupert Murdock and his ilk, most of the media people see - and listen to on the radio - is very religious right oriented.It's no surprise - or ought not to be any surprise - that the lack of education is working real well for right.
We now have several generations of people who are under educated and have no ability to think for themselves.
We sit in fromt of the TV watching Beck, O'Rielley, etc., tell us what they (or their bosses) think and before you know it, brainwashing has occurred. On the radio, Limpbaugh thinks Palin's new book is some kind of leading authority on policy.
(Maybe pagent walking rules?)
As if your high school reading list can make you a raging intellectual, she names books we all had to read to graduate as some kind of answer to Katie Couric's question: "what do you read?"
Remember, she DID say she would get back to Katie on that one.
I guess listing her high school reads in her book counts?

Republicans Rewrite Recent Known History

I'm having a hard time with these republicans coming down on Harry Reid for an awkward comment he made 2 years ago regarding Obama and his run for the presidency.
Obama has no problem with it; so get over it.
These are the same jerks who laughed at the monkey cartoon in the Post last year; who had no problem with promulgating the use of the word "terrorist" (referring to Obama) at McCain/ Palin rallies; and who joked about voting for Strom thruman when he ran for president ions ago, on the basis that we needed a "segregationist president" to "keep the country on the straight and narrow".
These are the same folks from "C" Street in washington dc; whose 'family' members are embroiled in sex sandals;These are the same folks who travel to Nigeria, meet witht he government leaders and are promoting "kill the gays" legislation - yes, it has turned into 'imprison them for life' legislation, but really, what's the difference?
I wish I could chop the heads off of a couple of people: Liz Cheney. For the life of me I have no idea what her relevance is: she sits with her shoulders hunched - just like her father - and speaks out the of the side of her mouth - just like her father...which IS a change from the first few times I saw her on the tube...it's almost like she is morphing into her father, some kind of new grossness there.
I wonder if she actually has an thoughts of her own, or if her brain has been replaced by some form of chip and now she simply mouths the words coming from Dick's little head.
Dick Cheney, now, there's a piece of work. We heard nothing from him during his VP-ness, and now he's all over the place.
I honestly think the REAL Dick is dead, this is a replacement sent by Rupert Murdock to sabatoge any type of recovery from the recent recession and to undermine anything good Obama might accomplish.
I mean, god forbid a black man should accomplish something the good old doughy white boys could not.
And George Stephanopolis is 0 for 2 calling people to the carpet on his show. I think he's being paid by the Republicans. He has yet to hold any of his right wing guests to anything resembling honesty. He is completely willing to let thim rewrite recent american history and simply skips along with his show.
STOP watching him!
Pretty much, I am really depressed at this last bit of commentary.
When the American people sit and watch these talking heads, when we can see and realize they are doing nothing to stop the convenient re-write of our recent history for their own benefit; understand that most of us will discontinue ourr engagement in the political process - because it is obvious we have nothing to contribute, and no ability to change anything.
I want to shout "THE EMPORER HAS NO CLOTHES!!!!!" hoping that someone besides Racheal Maddow, Chris Matthews and Kieth Olberman will pick up the cause.
And now, Fox News has just hired Sarah Palin, the queen of the historical rewrite.
I am beginning to see the end of honesty as I was raised to believe.
Everybody is lying and Palin is telling the truth.
Right.
Even though McCain obviously scrambled to get a VP candidate once the blow back about Lieberman became increasingly loud, his judgement comes into question if this is the best he could do.
Now, on national tv last night, McCain even said he had “no idea about the vetting process” regarding Palin, and, more importantly, “…it was a a year ago and I just don’t care.”
Whoa.

I know I wasn’t the only one whose head spun at that remark. I mean, this chick was gonna be the next in line. So we question the logic. One of the strangest political decisions of my time, for sure.
However, if I had to believe McCain or Palin, I side with McCain. Palin has no credibility; her lies are woven into the fabric of her persona.
And so, because of the scrutiny, everybody is “out to get Palin because she is so honest”, everybody is “picking on her”.
Poor Victim.
This should not come as a surprise to anyone.

Of course she had very little understanding on foreign or even domestic issues.
She was a newly elected governor from a state that fails to make national news, unless that news has to do with Palin. Until she got the nod to be a VP candidate, she would have never had to have opinions or knowledge of those issues. Certainly her schooling had nothing do with foreign affairs – she was a sports reporter. Also, her government experience centered around a town of less than 10,000 and a state with less than 1 million.
I have yet to find evidence that she has taken the steps to learn about key foreign and domestic issues and how she still makes national news is beyond me.
During her first night as commentator on Fixed News, she made little sense while O’Rielly did his best to make her commentary seem intellectually relevant.

It was not.
Again, we ALL could see she has no brains, no relevance, no cohesive thought process. Just flitting about, spewing radical right wing catch phrases, hoping one will stick.
Why does Rupert Murdock torture us with this idiotic woman?
FORTUNATELY for us, Palin is a drag on the GOP. We already voted in one dense GOP President (Bush)(twice), the country is not ready for a sequel any time soon, be their name Beck, Palin, Steele, or the Cheney mini-me.

The brick & The Rock

Finally!
People are beginning to see Palin for what she is - a brick (with a nod to my friend Steve, who was upset I likened Palin to a rock, being the rock is a natural wonder and beauty and perfect as is...a brick being man made - as is Palin's popularity) with not much substance.
Would that be a mud brick?
Anyhow...the longer Palin stays on Faux News, the worse her pollings will be. It's easy to gloss over a couple of sound bites; way harder to massage everyday air laden statements on TV, where we can replay and replay to make the point that there was no way this woman could ever have made it as VP. Simply not enough gray matter. We don't even have to reference the insanity of Palin as a media consultant.
She does it for us every time she opens her mouth!
Sarah Palin's most ardent supporters in "real America" love to suggest that those of us who don't buy into her shtick fail to grasp why they love her, citing her realness, plain-spokenness and whatever else they can conjure up.
Folks, nice try, but as a native Texan, I've seen many politicians and wannabes over the years who had charm, wit, charisma and a twinkle in their eye.
Anyone who has listened to the best football coaches the Lone Star State has to offer will tell you that they can persuade a mother and father to send their boy to hell to fetch a glass of ice water and bring him home a better man. They could teach a politician or two how to connect with average Americans.
You want a media darling politician with substance? Try the late Gov. Ann Richards, a woman who could cut you deep and beam ear-to-ear with her motherly smile. But unlike Palin, she had a host of strong ideas in her head that actually made sense and appealed to a cross-section of folks.
Former Rep. Charlie Wilson, who died this week, was a smooth-talking Texan who loved to party hard. But when it came to politics, he knew how to get things done. The media loved him because he could sit with you and enjoy a beer over barbecue, give them a hilarious quote or two, and explain foreign policy better than Henry Kissinger.
Why haven't I cottoned to
Palin? Because she portrays herself as a straight-talking politician who wants to lead a movement in the "Lower 48th" -- but is nothing more than a political celebrity willing to cash every check she can grab.
What truly exposed her for me? It was the ridiculous way she reacted in opposing ways last week to two political heavyweights who used the word "retard."
When it was reported that President Obama's chief of staff,
Rahm Emanuel, told a group of liberals that they were "f-----g retards" for threatening to run ads against fellow Democrats who weren't jumping on the health care reform bandwagon, Palin demanded his resignation.
As the mother of a child with
Down syndrome, Palin has often used her bully pulpit to demand respect for the mentally challenged. Nothing wrong with that. It is an issue that is close to her heart, and she should be a fierce advocate for them.
Yet when one of her biggest supporters, conservative radio talk-show host
Rush Limbaugh, also castigated liberals by calling them "retards," Palin provided him cover, even trying to explain away his comments.
In an interview with Fox News Channel's Chris Wallace, she said Limbaugh was using satire, while Emanuel was blasting those who disagree with him. But anyone who can read or listen could hear Limbaugh calling folks he disagrees with the same. Palin even went further, agreeing with Limbaugh that liberals are "kooks."
So Emanuel and Limbaugh used the word "retard" to describe folks they disagree with, but only Rahm was wrong? Yep, that's how it is in Palin's world. The advocate for the mentally challenged was quick to pounce on someone she disagrees with politically but defended her patron saint, Rush.
Sarah, when you hold yourself up as a fierce protector of the mentally challenged, politics shouldn't enter into the equation. Either you criticize everyone who uses a word that you consider a slur, or you come across as a crass politician who is afraid to offend your chief booster.
Maybe you ought to listen to your spokeswoman, Meghan Stapleton, who thought you cared about the mentally challenged when she sent this e-mail to
HotAir.com about Limbaugh's comment: "Gov. Palin believes crude and demeaning name-calling at the expense of others is disrespectful."
But knowing that wouldn't sit well with Rush, you backed off and gave him cover.
If you were true to your cause, you would have demanded an on-air apology from Limbaugh and scolded him for using the word. Instead, you showed your true colors.
Sarah, I haven't bought into your fake "I'm-a-real-American" persona. You slam the president for using teleprompters, but write crib notes on your hand to remember basic beliefs that should be easy to regurgitate.
You decry the "lamestream" media, but you bask in its glory and have joined its payroll as a Fox News contributor, even having the network build a studio in your home. Talk about media elite.
You give a speech riddled with falsehoods about the president and national security, and then try to shrug them off as the "lamestream" media attacking you.
You don't fool me, even as your legion of fans considers you the second coming of President Reagan. You quit on the people who elected you to become a
political celebrity, which your presidential running mate blasted then-Sen. Barack Obama for doing.
You had the opportunity to show everyone that you're willing to take on anyone who crosses the line against those who are mentally challenged, and you failed.
Please, make as much money as you can. Paraphrasing comedian Martin Lawrence, ride this train until the wheels fall off. But please, cut the crap. You're a crass politician with no true conviction. Your actions have shown that.
The opinions in this commentary are solely those of Roland Martin.