2009 - the year of the unemployed

Thursday, August 06, 2009

So, this the end of a 7 year cycle.
my grandson's 7th birthday.
his momma and poppa took him to the capitol aquarium and he picked out 2 goldfish.
totally thrilled to have a fish tank.
we went to the bakery and we picked out a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting.
sang happy birthday and my grandson cut the cake.
happy pictures. i love this little guy.
the company i've been working at for 7 years laid me off friday.
in 4 weeks, i worked 372 hours, and then no work.
there was 7 of us laid off.
wow.
i admit to spinning and clutching and anxiety attacks for the first 36 hours.
then i figured out my budget and ui benefit, and i felt a little better.
hmmmm...i've been at this place without unemployment insurance, so i feel a little better (read greateful / relieved)
knowing that i can squeek by and maybe pick up some freelance,"sur la table" work, if you know what i mean.
i'm looking at the end of a 7 year cycle (i know there's significance of the seven year cycle- is it the saturn return?),
the beginning of a new one, and what do i want that to look like.
hmmmm....
i'm up to a mile and a half swimming 5 days a week.
well on the way to my 50 miles by the end of the summer.
i think the universe is telling me to go to the gym for as long as i want to, ride my bike to the store,
or maybe to second saturday...
actualize She-Ra.
continue to simplify.
i realized sunday how much i let go of my life to do this job...which i like the work...
long hours and hard on my body, though, and i'm not getting any younger -
even with a mile and a half in the pool.
it's been good, though, to earn my living doing art; i know some really cool stuff...
my skills at photoshop and design are stellar.
definitely swimming has been an awesome stress release; i used to swim until the dialog in my head stoppped.
now pretty much as soon as i start stretching the sound of the water takes all that away.
i've been having some great swims lately, working on my strokes.
looking forward, feeling calm and no regrets.